please kill me

Monday, May 16, 2005

Thoughts are things..true enough..throughout the times that i've been trying to achieve my personal goals..i've encountered several things which made me stronger..and further reinforced my motto in life..never afraid of failure..as every failure is a stepping stone to success. I've seen people talk and talk..and yack and yack on what they want to do..what they are gona do..what they can do..blah blah blah..but yet..they have never taken the good ole action to start working towards their goals..they see people achieving something big..and they start telling themselves.."they are just lucky.."..But the fact is..those people who succeeded had the balls to take that unfamiliar first step..while those who only complains doesn't..and will always stay on the same spot forever in their lives. I despise these people..who constantly criticise..just because they can't do it. I despise people who tried to bring those who are working towards their goals down..just because they can't take it when they see their peers succeed. hese people just do not have the tenacity ..i pity them. They wouldn't take advices..they are so close minded that they only acknowledge their own presence in this world..i have realised..and learnt..to take advices very seriously..they may be good advices..they may be bad..but i now know..i need to really think ..why am i getting these advices? There must be a reason..and often..these advices will lead to something which we will never expect..in my case..opportunities..i tried giving a golden opportunity to my peers..but well..some had taken it..and are extremely happy and are on their way to freedom..be it in life..or financially. The others..had failed to see it..some even shunt me..some even take me for a joke..well..i don't care..i have given them something extremely golden in life..and they mocked at me..it's just too bad..too bad...i shall never be bothered with people like that..and i shall move on to people who really deserved it..

S.A.M whacked
2:11 AM

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Wednesday, May 04, 2005

back from meeting..physically drained..can i say a bit mentally too? well..a bit..gona replenish my energy soon..ooh..life has been so good ..i made my choice..and i know it's right..i'm so glad to have eagles working alongside with me..junjie is such a rare individual who is so persistent and determine to reach his goals..i'm so fortunate to be able to hang around with people like that..and doing business with them..i feel so sorry for people in the E quadrant of the cash flow quadrant. At times..we hope to help them move over to the B quadrant..which i and the others are in now..but it's just so bad..so bad..that they are so close minded..and never want our help..i wish them good luck..all i can do..i'm serious..Ron had just explained the situation people are in..i'm refering to employees worldwide..which i knew..but can't really see the whole picture then..now i do..very clearly..JOBS..which every human in this world are fighting for..actually meant..Just Over Broke..this is serious stuff..that not any plain jane or jack can see..only eagles can..winners will always foresee the future..while losers will always stay where they are..forever..and the government is so bad..so bad..they knew what was happening..but they are so selfish..they want people to work as employees as long as they live..just for the sake of taxes..haha..evil..! I really feel so sorry for these people..they are killing themselves..which they will never realise until they age..employees in jobs..will never have a stable job..job? not stable..never..one mistake..bam..u get ur DCM letter from ur boss..DON'T COME BACK ON MONDAY..well..but people just don't wana face reality. i can't believe parents are actually urging their child to study and get a good qualification and FIND A SECURED JOB..?? people are so naive..secured job? what do u mean by secured job? i bet no one could answer that, except someone who gives stupid answers. But then again..i'm so glad that i have moved to the B quadrant right from the start..and later..to the I quadrant..i will not do what people who are having jobs do..which is work for the money..i think its so stupid..i would rather make money work for me..its just so true that if one is in a so called secured job...they live their life by pay checks every month..so you call that secured? u earn..u spend..u earn more..u spend more..and this goes on and on..u will end up with no income when u retire..or even worse..get fired..if people would have a broader mindset..think far..earn money..invest..earn money ..invest..man..i bet the economy is darn gona improve..just too bad..well..time to go to bed..charge up !

S.A.M whacked
1:45 AM

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Friday, April 29, 2005

Cant sleep..business ideas kept running through my mind..gotta tell leonard..guess he should be awake and ready to go to class by now..and i haven't been sleeping the whole night..Just got my success manual today..great stuff i must say..urgh..what's seriously going on in my mind..ron will be giving his last talk tonight as he will be flying over to australia to take a peek over at the business over there,and bring back valuable ideas and help for us here in singapore..so during this time when ron will not be here..let's see how everything goes..see how william, stephen and the others do the job..It's gona be a really nice comparison on where they stand compared to ron..hmm..i've got some really great eagles with me..junjie..dave..leonard..and today when we met and discussed business..i can really see the "force"..Just by combining brains of 3 of us..damn..we're real strong..not including our whole team..! Our team is growing extremely fast now..porbably we gotta relocate to a larger office soon. Junjie had discussed about entering the japan maarket..hmm..japan is a rather huge market to venture in..and furthermore,he will be going over for an exchange programme in 2 weeks time..lets' see what we can come up with..Malaysia will be opening up soon..rumoured to be end of this year..ain't that great? yea..can't believe i'm actually in business now..seriously..it's still kinda "untrue" to me..it just doesn't look reality to me..just doesn't..my dream...yes..has come true..and will continue to progress..that darn leonard..climbing up so fast...that he's actually halfway through gold..damn ass..i'm gona catch up..i will..i seriously think this is crazy..he's not even 23 yet..and he's earning $100,000 per annum? And he's like not far away from where i stand..com'on..i can't believe seriously..absurd! madness..but..well..we deserved it..we saw the opportunity that many fools don't. Thanks my father in heaven,for guiding me along in life..a big thinker always visualize and see what the future can do..but he will never be stuck with the present..And i seriously woke up..awaken to the truth..the truth isn't all that bad or cruel..like what people always say.."the reality is cruel"..it really isn't! Why do i say that? In fact..most humans..or may i say almost all of them..who live in mediocrity..ain't any successful. People have been brainwashed all this while..People have been facing negativity in their everyday lives..this is what happens is almost everyone of human beings in life..

Wakes up in the morning, hits the alarm clock..and says: shit..another early morning..sian..wana sleep more..but i can't..gota head to work..damn it's gona be a bad day for me..shucks.. - NEGATIVE THOUGHTS

turns on the radio, hears war between USA and some stupid terrorists, earthquake hits taiwan, rape case in hougang, women jumps down from flat in sengkang..and says: it sure is a bad day...hmm... - NEGATIVE THOUGHTS

read newspapers, economic crisis, unit trusts falls..realised late for work! and says: shit..guess my whole day is ruined. - NEGATIVE THOUGHTS

i mean..i haven't really thought about this in the past ..but i see it so clearly now..it has got to do with the thinking of humans..everyday they have been bombarded with negativity..what will then dominate their minds? Negative! so true eh...most people can only talk the talk, but not walk the talk..that's why there is only 1 donald trump! hhmmm.......singaporeans..buck up!

S.A.M whacked
6:59 AM

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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Well..back on blogger again. Been so busy ..going into NS soon..heehee..i'm going into my next phase of life! So excited..! Junjie has joined me in business! That dude is full of drive! Man..can't wait to see the results of our hardwork..coach denis..he will be in for sure..we are growing so fast..i'm seeing so many new business partners recently..oh my holy god! I'm so excited that junjie is on board with us..this guy is so friggin ambitious. Man..there goes my eagle..and up he is flying already..and dave..he is another eagle waiting and hoping for the opprotunity to fly high..now he has got it..life couldn't be better off. Winners don't quit, quitters don't win! This phrase is so naked to the eye..even a primary school kid knows what it means..but do people really follow it and really understand the true meaning of it? I do. I have done it! Imagine what could have happen if i quit training and dieting for my dream of being national champion? Just imagine..just one close step to quitting..i'm gone..never will be a winner. But i never quit..it's a proven philosophy. I've gained so much knowledge through these few weeks with the team..it's priceless knowledge..nobody would've attain anywhere. And i've also learnt to be open minded about all things. " OPPORTUNITIES OFTEN HAS A SLY IMAGE. THEY OFTEN SNEAK IN THROUGH PEOPLE'S BACK DOOR DISGUISED. OFTEN AS A MISFORTUNE" True enough..i keep that in my mind since then..i will keep digging the mine..till i find gold..never quit. Earn with me or watch me earn. Mark my words. I will make it...and i will..Gona meet cousin zhiyun to discuss business 2nite! Oh man..let's just benefit our close friends and relatives aite..heeeha..! Junjie is going to japan next 2 weeks..and he's trying to expand our business to japan..damn die hard guy ..malaysia is a big gold mine too..urgh..i seriously can't sleep..damn excited! yea go baby! diamond director! go go go ..!!!!!!!

S.A.M whacked
4:28 AM

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Saturday, March 19, 2005

Ah...here i am..back to ma blog..haven't been blogging for such a long time..exams are coming..shuckz...fuck..damn it..anyway..life has been okie..better i guess. Now that i'm an adult..i have got more responsibilities under ma belt huh? Many things happened throughout these time not blogging..-that explained why i ain't here for so long..too busy huh. I have given up bodybuilding..never thought i would..concentrating on my studies and my new found life~! I'm much more matured after so many happenings. And i'm feeling so fulfilled. I had fun on the day i celebrated ma birthday..gee..wild fun..anthea and vicky were such sweets..aww..din expect them to help clear and wash the dirty stuffs..hmm..but anyway..one major thing in my life now..I'm self-employed~! Hmm..i can't wait to get my namecards..they are done already..but i've yet to collect them..very excited to start slogging for my future..i know i will do well with leonard and the gang..gota work hard that is..i want my first car by 26 at least..and my own condo..i'm dead determine..fuck~ Well..i've been thinking..weird..but it just crossed ma mind..I'm prepared to have friends which took me for granted and don't even bother keeping in touch with me to come to me when they learn i had succeeded and earning big bucks..hmm..not that i'm arrogant..but i know i will succeed..i duno..just thinking..and i'll start seeing the many sides of humans..kinda shitty..but..that's human nature huh...who cares anyway..after my exams..i'm starting full force..fuck it..~ leonard, thanks for giving me your support and help. To even think my own family members don't support me..and even put me down..what the fuck? And it was my gym buddy who helped me along? That's so pathetic? I really can't accept this bloody fact man~! Sigh..my family are also humans afterall..but..i'm very dissapointed in them la..It's so good to have buddies who have same ambitions and goals with me..and our ambitions will sure get bigger with Ron's teachings and coachings..meanwhile..i'll just tackle ma exams~! time to study..fuck life! hehe

S.A.M whacked
1:03 AM

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Friday, March 04, 2005

bubba just died...read on..anyway..i'm just bored...a minute's silence for da 'lobster' bubba......

PITTSBURGH - He dodged lobster pots for decades, endured a trip from the coast of Massachusetts to Pittsburgh and survived about a week in a fish market. But a trip to the zoo proved to be too much for a 22-pound lobster named Bubba.

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The leviathan of a lobster died Wednesday afternoon at the Pittsburgh Zoo & PPG Aquarium about a day after he was moved from Wholey's Market, said zoo spokeswoman Rachel Capp and Bob Wholey, owner of the fish market.

"They're very finicky. It could have been a change in the water. You have no idea," said Wholey.

Bubba died in a quarantine area of the zoo's aquarium, where he was being checked out to see if he was healthy enough to make a trip to an aquarium at a Ripley's Believe It or Not museum, Capp said.

Bubba will be examined to try to figure out why he died, although Capp and Wholey guessed it may have been the stress of being moved.

Based on how long it typically takes a lobster to reach eating size — about five to seven years to grow to a pound — some estimated Bubba was about 100 years old. But marine biologists said 30 to 50 years was more likely.

Other large lobsters didn't fare well after they were caught, too.

In 1985, a 25-pound lobster that the New England Aquarium planned to give to a Tokyo museum died when the water temperature rose and the salt dropped in its aquarium. In 1990, a 17 1/2-pound lobster named Mimi died just days after being flown to a restaurant in Detroit. Last year, a 14-pound lobster named Hercules that was rescued by a Washington state middle school class died before it could be released off the coast of Maine.

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S.A.M whacked
12:15 AM

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Monday, February 28, 2005

Got my hair done....ash! and..well..its like starting to fade..and now looks abit blonde...please i don't wana look like some ah beng..

S.A.M whacked
10:37 PM

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I've been so busy these few days..starting to feel worn out ..though i've been kinda slacking recently..i'm really feeling the pressure ..the stress..3 more weeks to the day..the day that i'm gona sit in this cold quiet room..facing these sheets of thick question papers..i'm dead. I can't take it. My head hurts. I've got so many things to do. I'm fighting. I missed my napfa dates in school, which sucked..seriously..so i'll either have to take it outside or enlist earlier..which obviously i do not want to..! I'm so vexed. So many things happened. Work..chilling out with the guys..and recently..jordan's birthday..i enjoyed myself. It was such fun..especially when julin arrived.! haha..yes..i'm bad...all of us in the room..hanging out..and finally ending the night with a never ending soothing song from zhengliang's iBook. I think i've come to rely on coffee too much..i'm feeling so lethargic without it. Urgh..well..went out with A last night..had dinner at thai smile..it was nice..good food..woot! We headed to PS after dinner..to get V's birthday gift..and we ended up getting a balloon for her. I really didn't expect to meet up with V last night. She had some issues which made her darn upset..and so..A looked kinda pissed..yes..i was too..haha..hmm...jus remembered..i gotta do my stuffs?? shouldn't i be like..doing my work now instead of blogging? hmm..anyway..my 21st birthday is coming..old...and i'll be celebrating it with jeremy..ah..i want some really good food on that day man..probably will be on the 12th of march..ye..food..ye..

S.A.M whacked
10:37 PM

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